Monday, August 25, 2008

As I Predicted


Well. Just as I predicted. I wasn't freaking out for no reason. There was a harsh break up. Lost someone I loved, someone I could see a future with.. and worst of all a best friend. But in the end I was not treated very well by her.. so I figure I am better off without her in my life. It just really bites when I took this huge risk. Something I would never ordinarily do. She promised me everything would be okay. I guess you cannot predict the future, but I was hoping she was serious about everything being okay. And the first time I let me guard down with someone this happened. I knew I should have protected my heart more. At first that what I thought she was doing. I thought she was worried about getting hurt. But I think she is just selfish and weak. So I feel bad for her. She lost the best thing that she will ever have. The best GF and person in her life, that will be there forever. Don't get me wrong. She has some AMAZING friends. Really. You know the sang, you are who you surround yourself with, not true with her. Her friends are amazing. She is not so much. She is a fake. She seems amazing. But now that I have been thinking back. She always said everything had to be about me. Which she needs to take a good long hard look in the mirror because baby for the past 6 months it was all about her. We are both women, so we both have a little of it in us.. Also, I did everything possible for this girl. I spent every penny on her. I did and said everything I could to make her happy. I would have gladly given her the shirt off my back. Idk. There so much more I can add. I just am annoyed thinking about this person who is so horrible. She has always been the one to be treated badly in a relationship. I guess I was the one that she got to treat bad for her. Well Karma is a bitch and I know it will come back and bite you in the butt one day soon. And I might enjoy it. I was just your little fun. Your toy. I think you stayed with me to keep things simple and so you had a place to live really. Ha what a joke you and I were such a joke thanks to you. I just have to say that she needs to make a big change in her life or else shes never going to be happy.

Just to add. How pathetic is it for me to transfer to a school that was closes to her because I loved her so much. Pretty sad on my part. I'm an idiot. Even though school is turning out well. Its still horrible. So maybe she should have gotten the balls to do what she did a little before I decided where I was transferring.. you think.. hmm.. thanks Emily, your so sweet.