I think Im drowning. Can Someone Lend Me a Hand?

Sorry never was enough. Saying things will change was not enough. Actions speak louder than words. You realize what you lost. You did not want me. All i was waiting for was a true and honest sorry, actually knowing what you did wrong and making me believe that you are sorry for it. Some things are unfogiveable, but do you even know everything that hurt me? How can you be sorry for something you did if you dont even know what those things are?
Im lost. I can't live with or without you. I need our friendship. That is all I ask of you right now.
I will always love you. Just not the same as I use to. And I cannot tell you that I ever can again.
You ask what you need to do. I cannot tell you exactly, mainly because I am not even sure. My mind is somewhere else now.
Things should not be this complicated.

Life Or Something Like It

I know what I want. I know what I should do. I know all of this, yet I am still confused, lost, unsure about everything.
My Code Names [lol]: Daniel && Emery. [[LOL]]
OK. From pasts posts you should be able to tell that I was totally and completely in love with "Emery". He decided to break up with me after 6 months for no good reason. Really his ex girlfriend put a bunch of non-sense in his head. Basically he didn't really love me and wanted things with his ex again.. we will call her Kimery.
OK so thats why I am in the predicament that is currently going on.
So.. I went home for week. When I came back, Emery and I were not talking at all by her choice. This is when Emery and Kimery were on good terms. Then when I went out on the weekends, I went a little single crazy and kissed a bunch of people. And I looked really hott. haha. Then when things with Kimery and Emery went a little south.. and I had met an amazing guy named Daniel...she decided that she always loved me and wants me back.
Now Emery is constantly telling me he loves me, misses me, and he talks about getting married and talks about our future kids. He says things I would have loved to hear a two months ago. He is telling me the things I told him when he broke up with me. I told him how much I love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him.
He told me to move on and he doesnt love me anymore. I said I am not giving up. After mulitple times of being rejected and being told that I should just move on and find someone else, I did. I met Daniel. Daniel and I are pretty involved. Not dating, but pretty close. I like him a lot. He is amazing. I have not found anything wrong with him yet.
I used to feel the same way about Emery.
Should I give him a second chance?
I don't know what to do?
99% of my thought say I should move on.
But he is so excited and wants me back so bad.
IDK
im eating..
ill add more later maybe.
ugh.
FML

When Can I Be Happy Again?

Well I feel like I am stuck between a rock and a hard place.. if that is how the sang goes. Basically, I feel like I am not allowed to be happy. I found someone.. a good friendish for now who makes me smile more than makes me mad which seems like an okay person to have around but my ex loves to tell me otherwise. I think its funny they don't even know eachother well enough to say things they say about eachother. I guess they are just going off what I have said. Yes I should not complain to my ex about my new friendish person.. but my ex is someone that is important to me and i cant wait until the day when we can either be together or be friends.. because right now we are stuck and its not good for either of us. I will add more later. Going to Practice.