Friday, February 6, 2009

Things on my mind:

Dani.
I have been working hard to put a smile on my face and not cry.
Everything makes me want to break down.
What is going on?
I was not in love, its not the same as Em. But I guess every relationship is not the same..
It kills me to know that.. I am the one who messed things up.
My mind will not leave these thoughts.
Usually.. I am very good at moving on. Maybe because I went back to Dani.. and still being cautioned..
I put even more into her. Idk.. I know we are good for each other.. I just wish I would have known the things I did before this happened so I could work on them.
I am the kind of person who can change these little things.. she was right.. things I did was not nice.. or right on my part.. I just never noticed. Fuck.
Just trying to keep it together..
The thing is.. I cant even talk to her about it. She has so many other things on her mind.. that are a MILLION times more important that this.
I feel guilty for even thinking of her putting any thought into this right now. She just cant. and SHOULDNT
Fuck.
I found someone who really did make me happy.
I love every second with her. Fuck.. I cant think of a time I was around her that I wasn't happy.
I feel sick to my stomach.

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