Why am I always on the verge of crying? I don't understand me anymore. Fuck. I feel like bawling, I have that feeling inside. Because a friend is being a bitch to me. Maybe because I feel like I would do anything for her.. and she is acting this way? I don't know. Its not worth crying over, I don't think. I mean. Why would I cry over something like that? People have been a complete bitch to me before and I don't give a shit, really, I could care less. Well actually, now that I think of it. My GOOD friends, or any friends at all, are rarely bitchy to me because I don't give them a reason to be. I didn't give this friend a reason at all. I liked her a lot previously, she doesn't want me.. I can suck it up and be a friend to her, so I listen to all her problems and the good things.. all good and bad she wants to tell me. I give any advice I can, and I just listen.. I did that today, didnt talk to her all day.. I call her to see whats up, havent heard from her.. and I get bitched at?? WHY? I didnt deserve it. Im just not use to it. She is turining into a bad person. Maybe this is just how she treats all her friends? I've only seen the dating side of her. . . If thats the case, I care a lot a lot a lot for her, but I can do without her friendship. Esp when she is acting as bad or worse than me ex right now. UGH. Love venting.. to myself.. haha on my blog that absolutely nobody reads. hA.
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I love myself and wont let someone treat me wrong. Live and Learn.
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