Fool Me Once

Two girls who have made me extremely happy. They are exactly alike. I loved the one on the right with all my heart. I will always love her, but not in the same way. I got caught up in the moment a few times. The girl on the right doesnt believe the way I feel about the girl on the right. This is understandable conisidering she is still in love with her ex.

I cared too much and let my gaurd down to soon for the girl on the left. I know better than to do that. You think I would have learned the first time with the girl on the right. But I feel like I made all the same mistakes with the girl on the right.

I wish the girl on the left would have understood my feelings for her. The girl on the right understands my feelings for the one on the left. I didnt love the girl on the left like the girl on the right, that girl on the right literally was love at first sight almost, it was amazing. But just because you love someone doesn't mean you should be with them.

I felt like the girl on the left and I were perfect for eachother because we were so much a like. I have always, always wished I could date someone like me. Someone who does and says all the sweet little things that I always do. Esp. someone who likes to tickle me.. sounds akward, but the girl on the left always did, and I had to beg the girl on the right and she would complain or say no. Its like I could give the girl on the right the shirt off my back and she would never do the same for me. The girl on the left, I would give her the shirt off my back, she would give me her shirt, shoes, pants, everything for anyone, and that is how I am. I wanted someone like her. I found her, but she didn't think she found what she was looking for.

I just think it is sad that I hurt almost the same for both. One broke my heart because I loved her so much, and the other broke my heart because I just love being around her, she makes me smile, and I love more than anything to make her smile, ugh, there is so much I can say. I just think it is pointless. This is just me venting.

I wish these two could read my mind and know how I really feel.

Im lost, once again.

I hate myself.

seriously.

hate.

me.